College Life Is not just POOPS AND GIGGLES...

I have not posted anything in a long time so here it goes.
Well I have moved off to college, it is finally great to be able to say this, but moving off to college is not always POOPS AND GIGGLES, let me tell you. There is major responsiblility. You are responsible for yourself, your actions, and getting yourself to the places you need to be. There is no one to tell you what to do where to be, and how to get there anymore.  I have ran into many challenges so far and I am sure there are many more to come, some of which I will deal with from now on,  these battles and challenges are not going to keep me from living my Dream.




I have learned that the saying "I am a broke college kid!" is the truth you don't realize how much money you spend, or how much your parents paid for until you get to college. I have recently  had the beautiful experience of  getting my first apartment and having to pay more bills. Not the I pay my parents for my phone bill kind of bills, but the real big kid bills. Not to mention I have had to pay a ticket, and the luxury of fixing my car. "It's the life of driving a Ford Mustang" got to love it.




I have found that there are many people in life that tell you things like "you can't do make it." or "You are never going to be anything other then some small town girl."
and sometimes you find yourself believing these things and it literaly tears you down, and makes you want to give up on everything you have worked for.




You have to keep pushing through it! you have to show the ones who tell you no! that Yes you can. prove them wrong. "No one ever said it would be easy to get where you want to be in life.... You have to work for it, there is more en joyment out of getting something, if you did it yourself rather then it being handed to you."




"The way I see it if you want the rainbow, you have to get through the rain."
~Dolly Parton




~SierraMae
Live, Laugh, Love

WOW!!! SEMI- adulthood

So recently I have become a highschool graduate wow! I know crazy right. I can honestly say I have learned a lot over the past four yrs, but I have learned the most about who I am who I want to be and where I am supposed to be this yr. I have learned the kind of relationships that are worth keeping and the kind that are not. I have learned that in the end physical attraction is not enough to keep a relationship going. After the minds of two people no longer connect all that is left is physical attraction and that is not healthy. I have over came many things I have to deal with and some of them will be a life long battle but I can overcome them with the help of God and people who believe in me.

Now that school is over this is the time I decide what to do with my life do I go to college? if so what do I study? Do I go to a college away form home? or do I stay? most of these I have decided im going to college, at OSU-OKC eventually transfer to OSU in stilly. Study to become a counselor and eventually studies of youth ministry I know I know not a lot of money in that but its where im supposed to be. not sure of living situations but starting out living with one of the besties Briana woot woot!!! im excited.

But the future is still the future and im gonna focus on the now!!!!

Love:
~SierraMae
Live, Laugh  a lot, and love always!!!

craziness

 Jaw update

So as you all know I had jaw surgery, well I finally go my screws out there are holes in the gums now but they are healing. I also found out my right side is not healing as fast as the left. So im pretty much in deep poop if I get hit. Everythings gonna be alright though I know it will be, because its in Gods hands and he will heal me...

Just more to write about.

Over the past couple of months things have been crazy with the jaw surgery... Feeling like I have lost a good friend and well of course the crazy breakup thing, but im getting through and things are gonna get better life moves on with time, and prayer. There are many lessons I have learned over these months and weeks im not sure I could tell you everyone. This is my senior year and I am determind not to let anything get in my way I am gonna have the time of my life and when im finallly graduated im gonna prove to the ones who have told me I cant do it that I can. From the words of Ashleigh Curtis "YOU CAN DO IT!!!" Thank you for that...

From the wonderful words of Walt Disney "If you can dream it, You can do it"

I plan to live out my dream and I hope you will one day to. Its amazing that when your young you look up to older people and tell them things and get advice and they tell you one day you will  be giving this speech to someone just like you and me and when that day comes you think haha she/he was right.

these are all lessons we learn and sometimes when you look back these things are the greatest memories of your life so remember...

Live your life for him, laugh a lot, and love your self for who you are.
~Sierra-Mae

SNOW OH HOW I HATE THE!!! I Wanna be in the FLORIDA!

Snow Oh how I hate the! you get in the way and you block me in.
you are such and in convenience you have ruined my plans two weeks in a row thanks!
Your a blessing and a curse all at the same time.
I think its amazing how we all say we want a snow day but when we finally have them we absolutely want to be back in school.

I think its time for an amazing vacation to Florida where the weather is warm! or maybe even the Bahamas that sounds great either way its time to get out of Oklahoma the land of bipolarism everywhere you turn.
 well I guess I should stop complaining and go get my bum in gear and shovel my car out and try to get a way from here lets see if i get to lazy...
~Sierra-Mae
P.s. Live your life for him, Laugh a lot, and Love yourself for who you are!

Matters of the Heart!

The heart can be fragile, the heart can be strong.
the heart can only go through so much heartache till if finally falls.
the holder of the heart can react in many ways,she could be the kind of girl who never takes to time to get over and moves on and on or  she could be strong and realize wow did I care at all  or be strong and knows she cares but knows what happened was needed, or she could react and realized she cared the world for the person, and can't stand to be with out them.
but she has to think is this person good for me is this person someone I can be with.
Sometimes the people we love can be the people we must lose, sometimes losing them is what will make your relationship with that person even stronger. Its alright things are gonna be brighter
and things are gonna be easier. But one day  you will find the one you are all supposed to be with.
there maybe many along the way that you might think hey I bet he is the one and maybe he is but sometimes you must lose them to gain them.
 every once in a while you may even lose friends or feel like you have lost them but they will be back if its a friendship that is meant to last.
God has a plan for every ones life and he is gonna use us in the best way possible who knows maybe one day you will be the girl at the computer typing this message to many others girls.  Maybe the matters of your heart is not relationships right now but  im sure whatever it is God will turn something awful into something something amazing and crazy! and it will all be another lesson learned that makes up your story and who you are!!

~Sierra-Mae 
p.s. remember to always Live your life for him, Laugh a lot, and Love yourself  for who you are!!

The monster jaws

before

Well here we go..... My name is sierra and for as long as I can remember I have had the monsters for jaws. Don't take monster for meaning ginormous because that is not the case, in my book monster means painful and hard to deal with... A good friend of mine Liz Tate said hey why don't you blog about this journey you are on so here we go im gonna try to blog.

Over the last four years my jaws have become progressively worse no one knew quite what was going on so i went through a lot of physical straining to correct the problem. In October 2010 I went in for a MRI and a month later we found out I have displaced cartilage. Which meant I had to get the problem fixed now or it would get worse and worse So it was off to surgery for me.

On January 19, 2011 I had a bilateral osteotomy -Ramus which means they were cutting through the bone.

 top pic was right after surgery.
bottom is probably the most swollen it was.
Notice the indention from the jaw bra. which held the muscles and jaw in place the first couple of days.

it has been a crazy journey the first 10 days I was wired shut and had a completely liquid diet clear liquids EWWW, Chicken broth or any kind of soup will not enter this mouth for quite sometime!!!! and this is the truth. I was allergic to just about every well every medicine they gave me. When I got in to recovery they gave me  morphine which gave me a rash which put me another 2 hrs in recovery. The guy next to me went ballistic and kept waking me up. The first night was a complete nightmare probably got a whole 30 min of sleep! I was in so much pain... But thanks to my Boss and Friend Amber Hunt for staying with me that night when my parents left!  when I got home the next day My not-mom Constance came and brought me some things I needed. I was taking Tylenol 3 with codien and we realized three days later I was allergic i had a adverse reaction and had to take benadryl to take my pain meds that sure got old after a while. It turned out i was also allergic to the antibiotic  they gave me  and i had to be switched to another med.... so as you can see i had a great time with all this.
after a few days when the swelling went down I realized I have screws in my gums literally like Philips head screws!!!! I almost freaked but Hey with every day I am getting a lil stronger and  I have come to realize how amazing food is and maybe I wont be as picky well i doubt it but maybe I will be more willing to try knew things. There are many things I could go into about all this but lets stay on topic!!! on Jan 28 i got the wires cut and got rubber bands and i go in for evaluation on feb 23....
so over this whole journey I was at the hospital probably 4 times with in two weeks.

I must go now but i will let you know how everything goes on the 23!!!
~~~~~ and remember Keep you head held high with poise and grace you are gonna do great things in life!!!!
-Sierra